It's Been a While

It's so weird to be writing a blog again. I have not done this in soon long, but I decided I need to get back into it. Well a lot has happened in my life while I was gone, but I fear it would take millions upon millions of web pages to explain it all. So let us skip forward to today. It was probably one of the best days I've had in a while. No arguments, fights, disagreements, just a nice day with my boyfriend. We talked about things that have been happening lately and just reflected on things in our lives. We also had a blast as we were Christmas shopping in Ann Arbor. Even though he doesn't really like to shop he still has fun with me. I'm so glad that we are where we are at now in our lives and I hope we continue to learn more as we learn ourselves and what we want out of life.

Letting go...

Letting go, I think, is one of the hardest things in life to do. Either letting go or standing up for yourself. In my case right now I really need to do both. I'm having issues with some people right now and standing up for myself comes into play first. I always become intimidated, scared, and talked down to when I am in this person's presence. But because I am intimidated I can't find it in me to stand up for myself. Plus, if I did it would open up a whole new rotten can of worms. So what is the reason to put myself through all of that when I can just deal with the issue as it is. This might not be making any sense to anyone, but it unfortunately makes sense to me.

The only way to help this problem go away is to let it go. It's really hard though. Even though this person has hurt me in ways I never thought possible I can't seem to just make her leave my mind. I worry all the time. I know it's not good, but it's to the point where I actually can't help it. If I could just let her go I think that I would be a lot better off. I've tried letting go before but then the next time I see her it's like the vicious cycle starts all over again. I've tried praying about it and everything. What I think the problem is though is I have been hurt so bad that I want to hold onto this bitterness and anger. But the more you think about it, it's really only hurting me, and I have to be willing to let go of that anger and bitterness or this will never get any better. How many times does a person have to get hurt?

Summer YEAH!

I definitely think that people need to relax. I am going to try to, seeings how this is my last summer of high school. Yes, I am the one with the wedding. It's July 11. I am so excited and my Taylor is leaving me to go to California. Hopefully I will be able to visit her someday too. I am going to soak up this summer like no tomorrow!

Spring!

I love spring! I think it is one of the best times of the year. After the long winter it starts getting warm and you get to see all of the green grass and new flowers. My birthday is also in the spring. This spring is especially exciting because it means I am getting that much closer to my wedding. I don't really remember the best part about spring break. I guess I would have to say how well my family got along; all break. Plus, we went to the movies and saw Monsters-vs-Aliens in 3-D. That was pretty cool. Sleeping in was pretty nice too. I needed to catch up on sleep...majorly.

Sorry it is so short, but we had a confusion in the lab today and I have to cut this short.

Photography

I absolutely love photography. If we wouldn't have done this unit in this class I probably would never have chose to follow that career path. I mean I have always wanted to be a photographer but after this little chunk of class and what I did at Adrian College I think that I am ready to make it my career choice.

I do have a suggestion for next year, but don't get me wrong this was really a lot of fun. I think you should try working on the color and arrangements and the black and white arrangements individually. What makes a picture better in black and white? What makes a picture better in color.

When it comes to photoshop I really believe that you really utilized its main points. Honestly some of it was hard for me though, i.e. channels and stuff like that. I think that it really teaches you how to make pictures look better without making them look fake. It also gives you that option of making them crazy. That's what I like about photoshop, the many different choices.

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I'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can not wait. It is getting closer and closer to my wedding. Plus graduation is coming, I can't wait to get out of this school and all of the drama that it entails. Why do people have to be so immature. Sometimes the truth hurts sorry to say. People have said so many things about Dayne and I, I don't get upset about it. I guess that just shows who has self-confidence and who doesn't. Life is becoming more and more stressful as the days go on. Between getting ready for California, scholarships, college, high school, work, planning the bridal shower, graduation party, and wedding, it's crazy. But I don't mind, I guess I work better under pressure. Have a good week!

Social Networking

According to dictionary.com social networking is
"a website where one connects with those sharing personal or professional interests, place of origin, education at a particular school, etc." So according to this definition I am proudly a social networker. I used to be really into this but not as much anymore. I have a myspace and I'm currently on a forum as well. I enjoy myspace the most. It lets you talk to people you might not have seen in years, or someone that lives across the world/country. My dad has a myspace as well. He doesn't use it hardly at all though. It was mainly to keep an eye out for me and my little brother.

So I'm really excited because in a few weeks I'm going to be flying to California. I really hope its warm there. I still have to gather up some money. It is going to be really close. When did airplane tickets become so expensive?