Letting go, I think, is one of the hardest things in life to do. Either letting go or standing up for yourself. In my case right now I really need to do both. I'm having issues with some people right now and standing up for myself comes into play first. I always become intimidated, scared, and talked down to when I am in this person's presence. But because I am intimidated I can't find it in me to stand up for myself. Plus, if I did it would open up a whole new rotten can of worms. So what is the reason to put myself through all of that when I can just deal with the issue as it is. This might not be making any sense to anyone, but it unfortunately makes sense to me.
The only way to help this problem go away is to let it go. It's really hard though. Even though this person has hurt me in ways I never thought possible I can't seem to just make her leave my mind. I worry all the time. I know it's not good, but it's to the point where I actually can't help it. If I could just let her go I think that I would be a lot better off. I've tried letting go before but then the next time I see her it's like the vicious cycle starts all over again. I've tried praying about it and everything. What I think the problem is though is I have been hurt so bad that I want to hold onto this bitterness and anger. But the more you think about it, it's really only hurting me, and I have to be willing to let go of that anger and bitterness or this will never get any better. How many times does a person have to get hurt?
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